Soooo ready for June 16th....

At first, the thought of my baby having an operation, as minor as it may be, was just terrifing. But now I am ready. I would do it tomorrow if we could. Cait now has her 6th or 7th ear infection since the end of January. I hate, hate, hate giving her antibiotics since I know that it is not going to completely fix the problem. Poor little girl. She has had so many ear infections that I am starting to worry that it will affect her hearing. She definetly isn't talking as soon as Lainey did. Just in the past few weeks has she actually "said" da-da and meant Shawn. So, we have our follow-up appointment on June 16th with Dr. Stith at Cardninal Glennon. I hope that we have her weaned enough to have tubes. She only takes a bottle before bed and then sometimes in the middle of the night. I've about made up my mind that I am going to demand that he do them - that will be new to me. But I can't stand to see my baby suffer time after time. Come on June 16th!

I totally agree!!!!!!!

We recently bought wii fit mainly as a tool for me to get into better shape. It is pretty neat...except for one thing. The board that comes with it will weigh you and figure out your bmi based on what you tell it your height is. Well, that is all fine and dandy for me and Shawn. But for Eli and Delainey - no. It said that they were both overweight!!! I don't think so! And for a little girl who is just now becoming aware of herself and the struggle to look like what the world thinks you need to look like versus what your true value is....we didn't need any help. She would say....It says I'm overweight!!! But it says I'm over weight!! Ugh. Eli didn't care what it said about him. Let me just say that Eli was just at the pediatrician for a well check and he was fine with no mention of being overweight. Delainey has an appointment in August for her 8 year wellcheck and, yes her BMI has been up in the past - that and our family history of diabetes required her to have a screening for diabetes at 5 years old which turned out fine. But, she is now a tall, active, normal sized 8 year old with just the right amount of meat on her bones!

I saw this on yahoo this morning and I have to say that I totally agree!!!
http://videogames.yahoo.com/feature/wii-ware-is-this-nintendo-s-first-blunder-/1215130

Changes, changes....

Well, after about two years Shawn will no longer be the Youth Minister at DQ FBC. We have known this was coming for maybe 6 months if that long but just didn't expect it to happen so soon. Personally, I have mixed feelings. I have no doubt that the leader coming in will do a great job - he has in the past. I guess my concerns are just dealing with our family and my feelings. I suppose I can't help but feel slighted a bit for Shawn. He was doing a good job and really didn't deserve to lose his job. But I am respecting authority and the leadership of the pastor and his vision for the church. Honestly, I had grown quite attached to some of the kids - it is kind of sad to leave them :( I found that I actually enjoyed teaching a girls Bible study - something I never thought that I would enjoy. I like encouraging the young girls and sharing where I have messed up and encouraging them to not do the same. I guess I am greiving the loss of that. Then from a finacial standpoint, we will be out over $600 a month! That isn't small change especially when we had depended on that. But, we will be paying much less in daycare this next year since Eli will be in kindergarten. And Shawn can do pulpit supply here and there as called. When I subtract what we will be saving in daycare/pre-k from the $600, then we are left with $180.....I suppose I would pay that to have more of my husband! It is just the idea of juggling things again that makes me unsettled and the fact that I thought we were finally going to get ahead of the game. Oh well....God will provide our needs.....and some of those wants may have to be postponed.

So pretty in peach!!!......

We had Cait's 1st birthday party - a little belated! She learned how to open presents and liked all of them - we think. She LOVED her cake!! Here are some pics of her self-inflicted icing facial!! We loved how the pink and yellow icing mixed to make peach - my favorite color on her!!

She looks so good in peach!!...........

We had Cait's 1st birthday party - a little belated! She learned how to open presents and liked all of them - we think. She LOVED her cake!! Here are some pics of her self-inflicted icing facial!!

Kind of sad today.....

You know what is sadder than your baby girl turning one? Your almost 8 year old girls saying that her disney princess umbrella is too childish for her!!! I knew that day would come. I just thought it would be later rather than sooner. It seems like the princess stage is a rite of passage that starts in toddlerhood and ends, well right about now. I guess my big girl really is growing up!

Then about myself....pity party.....Eli looks at me tonight and says "Mommy, your belly is big!" Too bad I'm not 10 months pregnant for there to be an excuse for that comment. Yeah, I do weigh more than I have in my life - I'm aware of this. Constantly aware of this. I shy away from mirrors and having my picture taken because of this. What i see in both of those cases is a big body with a small head - a little dysmorphic but true. That is not how I feel on the inside though. I suppose I can make all the excuses I want - "I've had 3 kids", "I work and am a Mom", "The medicine causes me to gain weight", "Maybe my PCOS is acting up and causing the weight gain", "I don't have time", "I'm doing the best I can"..........but I guess it all boils down to I need to get to the gym and exercise. That is the only thing that will help. And I did for a month in February - then life with kids happened....then a trip....then track season....and now here I am. Then on top of that, I like to eat! I like good food and my portions get out of control sometimes. With all that said though - I just don't know if I have it in me to put in the effort to drop the weight. By the end of the day, I am sooooo worn out. And the amount that I need to lose is staggering. I can't even fathom it. But I really, really, really do want to be around to see my grandchildren and not die of a heart attack at age 50 or be diabetic for the rest of my life. Maybe I can do it....i dunno.....

And then sad too, one of my daughters-from-another-mother had her first heartbreak. I really feel for her. I would take the heartache for her if I could. But a lot of lessons are learned in those times. I guess you learn to respect yourself and to pull yourself off the floor and go on. I am very proud of her for initiating the conversation and dealing with the problems. She deserves nothing less than God's best for her.....he will come someday......her own personal prince charming in whatever armor God has given him......Who said you outgrown being a princess???